Well, sure, I sometimes use msnspaces for blogging...but yeah, everyone can access it, and read whatever, and I don't like the idea of that xDD
For those who happen to come across this blogging sanctuary of mine--or perhaps
"somehow" stumbled upon it [no coincidences there xDDD], I wonder whether you'll read it or not. soo...if you happen to find something new, or something that i have kept in the dark from you--"SHUSH!" xDDD
But yeah, let's see how dedicated I will be for this blogging site xDDD
Oh, btw, and I write a lot. hehehe
It is currently 7:30pm Oz time.
I am about to finalise my art major work, and will send it to publish with Blurb.com in two days. aff it wont let me upload. meh, maybe another day hehe
Yes, this holidays has been work--work--work. After this holidays, will be trials-- then...yeah, just over a month, till we actually finish school. And then...the holidays...then HSC *gulps*
Oh!! Stairway to Heaven OST-Ave Maria *_________* hehe [listening to my Ipod hahaha]
So how was my day? You must think I am bored to start this blogging site now. hahah. nah. I saw meoli and serene's blogs, so I'm like...since no-one reads theirs [coughs* only me i guess hehe], i guess I should start one here xDD
Well, I did a bit of maths revision over the year 11 course...for boths normal maths and ext maths...then...I did a bit of art...then i watched shaman king with julian. hehehe
He distracted me--and boy, i really do miss watching anime T____T the only anime i watch now, is code geass *_____* I'll catch up with bleach and naruto laters~ [that means next year, when i go crazy, and start to download all the missing episodes ahahaha]
I havent been able to sleep lately. Well, actually, that's quite ironic, because I've been getting plenty of sleep lately. My body's trying to catch up with the lack of sleep before the holidays >.>"""" but yeah. I'm having "normal" dreams again! *____* i miss them so much!!!
I think when my mind's really tired, i don't dream much. But now, with more sleeping time, I'm having normal, cool dreams...*coughs*. I want to have another flying dream!!! hahaha i sound so naive >.<""" Hmmm...wtf!!! LOOOL that was no bloody coincidence... migosh. alter ego just sent me an email...well, sure, i was thinking about AE...but let's see what it is...*excuse me while i head over to my inbox, with my heart skipping a thousand miles per second* hehehe oh. LOOOL okays, its one of his friggen awesome quirky chain mails hehe A transparent Apple laptop??? wtf..some of the shots looks like its photoshopped...but it looks so real! Hmmm!!! something to ponder upon >.<""" Sigh** i still need to edit my eng major work. edit all my english essays, write CF story...finalise multi major work...do multi paper work...and revise--revise--revise for everything else!!! sometimes, i sit in my chair, and wonder why i was so stupid to choose 13 units...or even chose to do 3 major works...but thats my nature, and who i am...i hate that fact about me T____T but somehow, i manage to do everything >.<""" im gonna be so relieved once this year is over...but then again, i dont want to school end T___T sigh. T___________T nyan~ Amagosh. I seriously can't wait for the "JK Rowling: A year in the life" tomorrow!! Youtube didnt allow me to watch it many months ago, so HA! take that!!! try stopping me from watching it, stupid MR Copyright!!! hehehe
Hmmm...it has been over a week since my birthday...time flies by so fast >.<""
I guess i should blog about my birthday hehe. Well, truthfully, birthdays never existed in my life. I mean, the last time, i had a birthday party, was like..when i was ...err 4 years old? the last time i had a proper cake was like...7/8 years old? After that, it was just the same old ritual. Yum-cha. Maybe its the asian custom, that we dont celebrate "birthdays". and since its always near, or during the holidays, nothing happen much, because Dad's at work, or i have to end up doing holiday cleaning on my brithdays>.<"""
Okay, sure, i sound like a bloody brat. I admit-- I just miss the old times. But yeah, I think I've given up the whole birthdays thing. But...this year, my 17th birthday...I didnt expect much to happen. At all. But ...it's one of the best tha i ever had.
im serious xDD well, last yr, its the usual, you know. I remember that night >> i was talking to a.e. I felt so cut, that he didnt know it was my birthday [mind you, school term 2 finished already] hehe. okay, we were really close friends back then--but somehow, i felt disappointed that he didnt know it was my birthday. but hey, i was still in denial back then, so shut up~ lmao
okay, 2nd July-- I was youtubing with a.e. and migosh, another brilliant discovery!!! he youtubes a lot of random stuff too *_____* the IAG cute baby *____* and lots of other random hilarious crap...migosh but yeah, it seems he has forgotten about my birthday, which was the next day >.<"" okay, yes, I admit..this admiration for a.e. initiated from the early stages when i began talking to him "properly">> when we moved away from the naive times, arguing and blbalbalblaba stuff. mind you, this admiration started early 2007. hahaha but...ii guess, it was because i fascinated by him, and his persona...and we've grown very close, and still are.
he's like...Mr Darcy...and I'm Elizabeth Bennet haha Or...in contemporary context, I'm Bella, and he's Edward haha
like seriously, hes a friggin vampire *____* ANYWAYS, WHAT IS THIS SIDETRACKING?!?!?!? >.<"""
i mean, he finally acknowledged me as a "best friend" the week before my birthday--the day when they went to bio.
ANYWAYS, back to my recounting >.<""" but yeah. im like, forget it. so much for being a "best friend". meh
but yeah, the next day came. maths>> both maree and serene were on careers search thing. i was left alone in maths. it was ...quite bizarre! mark said "happy bday"...and yeah, all the males came in, the nerds wished me "happy bday" it was such a blur~ and finally...a.e. entered the room...NO BLOODY EFFIN COMMENT! i felt...euphoric with myself, because I knew he had forgotten. but yeah, samer heard, and started to sing "happy bday" and i was like, "err, no samer, stop there, its okay" gosh, such classic moment. but yeah. i was pissed with a.e.
i had ext eng second period. sop was gone during recess, with viktoria and maree. i didnt know why. i thought she was still in maths or something. when i got to our room, viktoria was there, im like, migosh, sop is planning something. and yeah, sop came out of room 20, and pestered me to go to bathroom or something. and yeah
i realised i needed to go anyways LOL so yeah, when i came back, everyone was there. sop was lighting a "17" choc mud cake. and yeah. migosh. like, almelor went somewhere, and we needed her camera, and we were waiting--waiting---THE CANDLES WERE BLOODY MELTING--WHERE WAS ALMELOR??? and she ws outside talking to someone hahaha and yah, we harrassed her inside, they sang quickly, so i could blow it out quickly --THE CANDLES WERE FLAMING GODAAMIT HAHAHA-- i could barely blow the bloody candles out...took me a couple of minutes till all of them were out [the candles nearly melted into the cake] because icouldnt stop laughing hahaha but migosh, such...classic moment. in such a long time. and yeah. we sat the rest of the lesson planning almelor's CF story for her to write for our yearbook. it was soo hilarious..
almelor tried to poison forsyth with poisonous choc cake...plan fails, so she uses lightsaber...the castle is the "cosy" setting..ahahaha and stuff like that xDDD ext eng..is always fun *____*
but yeah, when we walked to next period, i wassaying to sop, how i appreciated it a lot. and yeah, i told her how i was slightly "cut" because a.e. had forgotten. she "absent-mindedly" said "what? he didnt give you the card?"
i was like, "what?" "didnt he give.." and she saw my puzzling expression, and gave up. im like, what the hell is going on... and yeah, sop said, dont go home after multi, and told me to meet her in front of science
throughout multimedia...i could not concentrate. i tried to piece everything together. i thought a.e. was gonna give me my card after 3rd period, when everyone goes home. the thought of that thrills me. though, it seems too good to be true. and i really thought it was "going" to come true. i could barely breathe. migosh.
when i came out, sop was there waiting for me. we walked down the path...met hela and spinos...spino wished me happy bday, and gave me hi 5 ...i was...stunned? that was probably some...connection...well, the first, that is, after a couple of years?? migosh >.<>
yes, i was deeply disappointed. cut. cut. CUTTTT.
but yeah, me and sop went to almelor to get our marks for report. then sop said, "maree and serene are waiting" im like, "Whhhaaatt??" i mean, it was home time...and ...yeah, i was just confused!!!
ad yeah...everyone..was there. sop, maree, serene, and sheenal...they were there...with presents and all...and i had to open every pressie and card...and yeah, they gave me another cake..[it was soo prettyful!!!]
i saw serene and sop, conspring something secretly...but they wouldnt tell me >.<""" but yeah, after ive finished, i tried not to be teary, but i covered it up...it was such a bizarre day. something i will cherish forever. the goodness from everyone...the greatness from everyone...the pressies and cakes doesnt matter much...i was glad to spend it with everyone...
and yeah, everyone went home, and me and sop spent lunch together. eating her massive choc scones, and yeah, we talked. and yeah, i tried pressuring sop to tell me what her and serene were discussing, but she wouldnt tell me >.<>
that night...migosh. i really want to kill him. if i had a voo doo doll, i'll stab it to DEATH. he didn;t say anything till it was like...12 something...migosh. and he left soon after that I HATE YOUUUUUUU!!! but yeah, if he didnt say anything at all, that night, i would kill him, and probably ignore him.
okay...the next day came. i'll fast forward to arvo. he was on early. and yeah. he sent me clips of "happy bday" songs. and he explained why he didnt say anything to me at school. he didnt trust deepak. and yeah, then..he revealed to me that he was going to give me my card, and blablablala thank you so much a.e.! and yeah...i said i was "cut". and what did he do? he recorded himself playing a spanish song, he has been practising for ages...it reminded of those times, he recorded me the titanic song...*sigh* but yeah, HE WAS SOOOOO BRILLIANT *__________* all my hatred disappeared. hehe i still wish he gave me the card though :D
i adore him so much *___*
anyways, i should stop now...and maybe go back to this later~
so yeah
this is susan loggin out!~
xDDDD
Regenesis!~
